i don't know if i'm doing the right thing. i hope i am.
i'm not sure if i can live my whole life living with a person that have given me so much pain.
and now, i like my single life. no responsibilities and not have to worry about getting cheated.
i need you to be good because you want to be. not because of me.
i need you to be good even when you're angry.
i need you to be good even when i'm not.
i need you to stop hating and start forgiving.
i need you to show me how faithful you can be.
because honestly, the trust and faith that i had in you,
it's gone. i've thrown it all away when you asked me to.
you need to gain it back. because this time,
i don't know. i'm just afraid to trust.
what i know is, i'll try my best to let this painful memories fade away.
i'm not sure if i can live my whole life living with a person that have given me so much pain.
and now, i like my single life. no responsibilities and not have to worry about getting cheated.
i need you to be good because you want to be. not because of me.
i need you to be good even when you're angry.
i need you to be good even when i'm not.
i need you to stop hating and start forgiving.
i need you to show me how faithful you can be.
because honestly, the trust and faith that i had in you,
it's gone. i've thrown it all away when you asked me to.
you need to gain it back. because this time,
i don't know. i'm just afraid to trust.
what i know is, i'll try my best to let this painful memories fade away.
It's been long that i've not updated this.
If you want to know what have been happening in my life,
click on THIS.
I DONT KNOW
the last time i stopped updating this page,
i was a happy guy with a super nice gf.
well, all that have changed.
for the better i hope.
HOW I FEEL
now, i need to take things slow and move on.
if i were to like a girl,
i seriously need to stop. and think.
do i like her because i like her?
or am i just liking her due to this recent breakup?
TOWARDS YOU.
I don't want to like a girl just because of this recent breakup.
if i were to like a girl, i want it to be sincere.
and i am really unsure about my feelings now.
and i am afraid to have feelings for anyone else.
im afraid to trust anyone anymore.
AND I DON KNOW HOW YOU FEEL TOWARDS ME.
this time, if i like someone,
i'll take my time to think about my feelings.
if i really like her, then i'll tell her.
and if she really likes me,
i'm sure she'll wait patiently for me,
if she goes for another guy when i'm still thinking,
then, we're just not meant to be. =)
WHAT I KNOW IS, I MISS YOU WHEN YOU'RE NOT AROUND.
If you want to know what have been happening in my life,
click on THIS.
I DONT KNOW
the last time i stopped updating this page,
i was a happy guy with a super nice gf.
well, all that have changed.
for the better i hope.
HOW I FEEL
now, i need to take things slow and move on.
if i were to like a girl,
i seriously need to stop. and think.
do i like her because i like her?
or am i just liking her due to this recent breakup?
TOWARDS YOU.
I don't want to like a girl just because of this recent breakup.
if i were to like a girl, i want it to be sincere.
and i am really unsure about my feelings now.
and i am afraid to have feelings for anyone else.
im afraid to trust anyone anymore.
AND I DON KNOW HOW YOU FEEL TOWARDS ME.
this time, if i like someone,
i'll take my time to think about my feelings.
if i really like her, then i'll tell her.
and if she really likes me,
i'm sure she'll wait patiently for me,
if she goes for another guy when i'm still thinking,
then, we're just not meant to be. =)
WHAT I KNOW IS, I MISS YOU WHEN YOU'RE NOT AROUND.
- Mood:
thoughtful
hello!
as most of you know, i've actually stopped updating my livejournal.
i'll only update my livejournal once in a blue moon.
i've changed to a newer blog. dzariifcesc.blogspot.com
check it out!
ok bye,
francescdz
as most of you know, i've actually stopped updating my livejournal.
i'll only update my livejournal once in a blue moon.
i've changed to a newer blog. dzariifcesc.blogspot.com
check it out!
ok bye,
francescdz
- Mood:
calm
I'm tired of being treated so badly.
As if I'm nothing to you.
I guess some people will never know how to treasure a person.
All my sacrifices, thrown away.
I should have known.
You are the type or person that will be nice to me when you want something from me,
I tried to not think of you this way.
But it seems that you never fail to be.
Never fail to make me feel useless to you.
whenever I can't make it to help you.
This is not love.
It's just bull shit.
How much longer am I suppose to endure this?
I'm trying my best not to say mean words.
That leaks out of me whenever there's a crack in my heart.
It's sad to know.
Whenever I feel down or just not needed.
It's because of you.
and you made it worst.
because you never want to make me feel a little bit better.
As if I'm nothing to you.
I guess some people will never know how to treasure a person.
All my sacrifices, thrown away.
I should have known.
You are the type or person that will be nice to me when you want something from me,
I tried to not think of you this way.
But it seems that you never fail to be.
Never fail to make me feel useless to you.
whenever I can't make it to help you.
This is not love.
It's just bull shit.
How much longer am I suppose to endure this?
I'm trying my best not to say mean words.
That leaks out of me whenever there's a crack in my heart.
It's sad to know.
Whenever I feel down or just not needed.
It's because of you.
and you made it worst.
because you never want to make me feel a little bit better.
- Mood:
crushed
I'm still breathing.
Not dead yet.
haha.
the reason I don't update is because I have no more internet connection at home.
sad right?
now still got no internet connection.
Have to go to my cousin's house for this connection.
suck ahh my family.
if only god gave me a proper dad.
I won't have to live in such hard and uncomfortable life.
Not dead yet.
haha.
the reason I don't update is because I have no more internet connection at home.
sad right?
now still got no internet connection.
Have to go to my cousin's house for this connection.
suck ahh my family.
if only god gave me a proper dad.
I won't have to live in such hard and uncomfortable life.
- Mood: bored
I was listening to myself when i heard my heart saying, "I hate her more than I hate the devil".
I then heard my mind saying "Don't follow your heart too much. Be patient."
so, I chosed to be patient.
how I wish I've just followed my heart.
this post have nothing to do with anybody in my life.
- Mood:
cold
If this is better for you. Than I'll let it be. No matter how bad my life can be. Things won't be better for you, with me anchoring you. I'll let you free. free from me. with a little more time, I'll be away. away from you, so you'll be free.
If i were to stay, and be your friend, it will just end up with my heart breaking apart. rotting and breaking to dust.
if we were to be apart, I'll force you out of my heart. I won't be in your life. I think it's better for both of us.
I'm sorry for my mistakes. I won't make you live in a rut. You're free now. Not a part of me.
I will survive, this tragedy. The loneliness that's in me, I think it's just temporary. This freaking pain, that's in me.
no regrets will be in me. i hope I'll lose all this memory.
I know me better
I won't be as bitter
In my own heaven
I'll be gone forever
Won't fall back never
I won't crack ever
Won't look back never
If i were to stay, and be your friend, it will just end up with my heart breaking apart. rotting and breaking to dust.
if we were to be apart, I'll force you out of my heart. I won't be in your life. I think it's better for both of us.
I'm sorry for my mistakes. I won't make you live in a rut. You're free now. Not a part of me.
I will survive, this tragedy. The loneliness that's in me, I think it's just temporary. This freaking pain, that's in me.
no regrets will be in me. i hope I'll lose all this memory.
I know me better
I won't be as bitter
In my own heaven
I'll be gone forever
Won't fall back never
I won't crack ever
Won't look back never
- Mood: lonely
whenever you walk pass a thrash can,
do you think of the things that might be in it?
I mean, most people won't think there's anything useful or valuable in a thrash can.
this is because, most of the time,
things thrash cans are all rubbish
most of the things in a thrash can are unwanted stuff.
They are either spoilt, or broken.
there is little value, or no value at all for those items in a thrash can.
but what if, there's a gold coin in a thrash can?
nobody will notice it.
even with it's high value, nobody will notice the gold coin.
this is because, the gold coin is surrounded by spoilt items.
it goes the same way with a diamond ring in a dumping ground.
so, if you're a nice person, try not to mix around with the wrong company.
the gold coin or diamond ring, it will still be able to keep it's high value.
but for a person like you, you can change, and your value will drop.
if you realized how bad you've become,
it's not too late to change.
this is because, if you still have the heart, the nice person inside you,
you can still be nice and valuable back again.
value, refers to your value towards the community you are in, and your value towards your family, your religion and yourself.
do you think of the things that might be in it?
I mean, most people won't think there's anything useful or valuable in a thrash can.
this is because, most of the time,
things thrash cans are all rubbish
most of the things in a thrash can are unwanted stuff.
They are either spoilt, or broken.
there is little value, or no value at all for those items in a thrash can.
but what if, there's a gold coin in a thrash can?
nobody will notice it.
even with it's high value, nobody will notice the gold coin.
this is because, the gold coin is surrounded by spoilt items.
it goes the same way with a diamond ring in a dumping ground.
so, if you're a nice person, try not to mix around with the wrong company.
the gold coin or diamond ring, it will still be able to keep it's high value.
but for a person like you, you can change, and your value will drop.
if you realized how bad you've become,
it's not too late to change.
this is because, if you still have the heart, the nice person inside you,
you can still be nice and valuable back again.
value, refers to your value towards the community you are in, and your value towards your family, your religion and yourself.
- Mood: thoughtful
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